i wanted to tell u that today was a sunny day.
the sun was shining so bright.
the heat made me a little bit hot and sweaty.
but still, i was happy...

it's 12.00 a.m.
i still can't close my eyes.
i smile when i remember funny things about u.
i cry when i remember that i can't see u again.
can u help me to close my eyes?
so i can dream about u and meet u in my dream?

i don't want tomorrow to come.
i want to sleep forever,
so that i can dream about u forever.

no matter how many times i ask God
to make me smile,
i just can't.
isn't it weird?
when we were together,
it seemed smiling was the easiest thing to do.

and then i realize,
i can't smile without u.
is it right?
no, it is not.
i have to smile even without u.
i don't want to make u worry.
i want to leave sweet memories between us.
because i love u...
that's my reason for smiling and living on my days.
maybe i'll cry again someday,
but i'll make sure i'll smile more....

(dedicated for my friend, Wiwin Winarsih, who lost her beloved lover. may God gives u strength)